On the bright side, I’m not hallucinating yet!

I am so tired I feel nauseous, in addition to the gravity surges and headache. Therefore, I am going to

FINISH THIS DAMNED SCENE,
and see if the pain helps the creative process. Crank the music, this could be interesting.
Edit: I just killed someone, and show no signs of stopping. So lame…..
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‚ÄúSilence does not necessarily mean a secret.‚ÄĚ

“Yeah, with some people. Who you aren’t.”

Sarti and Kael, you are so much fun to write. *happy* I’m never sure what you’re going to say. Not the most PC pair, those two. And soon you talk to Tenish! And Jaslyn! And Jole! Fun times on the¬†horizon!¬†
And it’s not really getting easier to write, no. I still look at my novel and go “mehhhhh….” But my oh my I love it so much. *grins madly* If I can just ignore the burning hatred of the quality of what I just wrote, and revel in my characters, it’s SO MUCH FUN. So I’m basically in a passionately love-hate relationship with writing. ¬†*ponders* That does seem to be pretty representative of me. And my relationships. And my sanity. *coughs*
But hurrah for writing Kael again! My crazy messed up girl. ūüėÄ Tonight, we plan. *heroic music swells as I stare hungrily at my keyboard*
Oh wait, my parents have people downstairs. Which means that I have a nervous stomach ache. Which means that I either go down there in pain, or curl up on my bed and wait for them to go away. Decisions, decisions…

"And again we try, just to stay alive…"

Goodness gracious; I think there is a pressure change in the air,¬†because¬†my head feels like it’s gonna burst if I move it too fast.

But still, I am clutching¬†the¬†opportunity¬†to try and write. Try being the operative word in that former statement,¬†because¬†my inner editor evidently is an¬†elusive¬†creature. I had her securely trussed up, I thought, but now she’s out again, carefully stealing my words. My habitual practice at this point would be to drug her out of¬†commission¬†with chocolate, but I’m also trying to save money, so that seems¬†vaguely¬†impractical.
Okay, time to go casually drop some important information.

My hands hurt

I’m still enjoying the writing, but it’s hard!

I don’t type very fast. This needs to change. It will change! I shall prevail! I definantly need to get my skills up before May. I’ve agreed to do a 50,000 in a month with Bahnree then. *gulp* I can do this. Right. Ah huh. *weeps*

This is still very fun though. I had this story somewhat plotted out already, but it’s morphing a bit. The ages of all my characters have jumped about 2 years. There is also a villain character, who is quite satisfactorily evil. *smile* And my pianist has quietly slipped away, to be replaced by a goofball. It’s fun!

However, someone is going to be shot. This is undeniable.

*rubs aching hands and slinks away*